060228 – strange news

Strange day
Was sorting music
And doing nothing more. Almost, few short letters, some business calls for my work, and maybe some more minor things, helping with this or that to friends.
And head aches a bit. Not nice.
And one finger got swollen and one got small infection. And of course i was receiving guests – at first the great actress. Was a very nice visit, and i got junk food…kebabs. they lack success, otherwise was very tasty. And then, when i thought i will have a nap, mamyte arrived and we spent some time and now its too late to have a nap, so it seems that i will go to bed before 23.00. what a strange day maybe will start a decent sleeping regime.
And made order in my drawer and cd collection a bit too. And watched a movie�kiss kiss bang, gang. Nice and easy though did plan to watch broken flowers.
And I want to move into my new apartment so. And I had a long talk with Marin today. My friend from Estonia, who’s going to Madrid in the beginning of march. Hope to meet her too soon. And seems that the transplantation of the bone marrow isn’t an option, it’s a thing to do. Sucks. I thought that I could somehow do without it. And my mom has got problems with ears – she talks very loud.

Oh and thos who might want to check out my new music please see below and if you want can check it out:

F:\muz\cd78 – done
anne clark – An Ordinary Life [1986]
Arte Y Majestad [Flamenco] (1975)
Arvo P�rt – Alina
Bach – Inventions & Sinfonias
Bang Gang – Something wrong (2003)
Belle And Sebastian – The Life Pursuit (2006)
Bernibas Milicija – Muzika dejam
BI-2 – Inomarki
Brazilian Lounge (2006) Putumayo Presents
Bryan Ferry – Slave to love [Best of the ballads] (2000)
Cafe de Paris
Cat Power – The Covers Record
Damien Rice – Live At The Lobby
Damien Rice – Live at Vicar Street 15th january 2005
Damien Rice – O
david sylvian – blemish (2003)
Djivan Gasparayan & Michael Brook-Black Rock
Gotan Project – Inspiracion Espiracion – Bonus-CD
Gotan Project – Inspiracion Espiracion
Gotan Project – La Revancha Del Tango
Jazz Legends – Piano (2 CDs)
Jose Gonzalez – Stay In The Shade Ep (2004)
Jose Gonzalez – Veneer [2003]
Julie Doiron and the Wooden Stars
Mogwai – Friend Of The Night (CDS)
Mogwai – Mr. Beast (2005)
MUM – Summer Make Good (2004)
Pasaules Gaisma – Materijas Bilzhu Gramata (final master)
Roxy Music – Country Life (1974)
Roxy Music – Roxy Music (1972)
Roxy Music – Siren (1975)
Roxy Music – Stranded (1973)
Roxy Music – The best of Roxy Music (2001)
Slava un Rolshteins – Shuupoles (1996)
Stan Getz – Joao Gilberto-Astrud – Meditation
The Beatles – Artifacts I – Disc 1- The Early Years
The Beatles – Artifacts I – Disc 2- Beatlemania
The Beatles – Artifacts I – Disc 3- The Psychedelic Years
The Beatles – Artifacts I – Disc 4- Inner Revolution
The Beatles – Artifacts I – Disc 5- Get Back To Abby Road
The Beatles – Artifacts II – Disc 1- Youngblood
The Beatles – Artifacts II – Disc 2- Ticket To Ride
The Beatles – Artifacts II – Disc 3- Northern Song
The Beatles – Artifacts II – Disc 4- Alone Together
The Beatles – Artifacts II – Disc 5- The Long Road
The Beatles – Artifacts III – As Time Goes By- 1976-1980
The Beatles – Artifacts III – Free As A Bird- 1981-1994
The Beatles – Artifacts III – Not Fade Away-1969-1971
The Beatles – Artifacts III – Sue Me Sue You- 1972-1975
The Beatles – Meet The Beatles!
The Beatles – Please Please Me
Tibetan Chakra Meditations
Uma2Rman – A mozet eto son
zzz – misc
F:\muz\cd79
cinematic orchestra – everyday (2002)
cinematic orchestra – man with the movie camera (ninja tune
cinematic orchestra – motion (1999)
david sylvian – brilliant trees (1984)
david sylvian – camphor (2002)
david sylvian – everything & nothing (2000)
david sylvian – gone to earth (1986)
david sylvian – holger czukay – plight & premonition (1988)
david sylvian – secrets of the beehive (1987)
david sylvian & robert fripp – the first day (1993)
depeche mode
depeche mode\Depeche Mode – 101 – CD 1
depeche mode\Depeche Mode – 101 – CD 2
depeche mode\Depeche Mode – The Greatest Hits
depeche mode\Depeche Mode – Violator
depeche mode\Singles 1986-1998
dimitri from paris – cruising attitude (2003)
Frederic Galliano & African Divas – Sacr� Live! (2004)
Frederic Galliano and the African Divas – Frederic Galliano and the African Divas (2002)
herbert – bodily functions (2001)
Ingus Baushkjenieks – Koncerts sintezaatoram ar pedaali
NSRD – Invaliidu tramvajs (1983)
NSRD – Veejsh viitolos (muuzika izstaadei) [2CD] (1986)
NSRD – Viegli 3 mana sirds (1992)
telefon tel aviv – fahrenheit fair enough (2001)
telefon tel aviv – map of what is effortless (2004)
vector lovers – capsule for one (2005)
vector lovers – roboto ashido funk (2003)
vector lovers – vector lovers (2003)

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060227 – day before?

Very very late again.
And surprisingly im downloading some software updates, and have some time for recording my day.
It was somehow like Sunday…pleasant, calm and light. Im hungry again, but i cant eat now, cause i will then just blow up. And i am still maniac of making infrastructure, still cant get rid of that and thus i haven’t started doing many things. Not nice, no, no, no.
Today we had a very pleasant alias game with ineta, reins and rita. Was wild and difficult.
And I should start watching movies�today I saw a very interesting opposite of the l-word – a movie about gay men community. Must say that somehow it was fun, but I prefer to look at female bodies.
And im starting to get excited about the outcome of the results of the tests of the bone marrow�cause I guess its gonna be quite serious and will determine further actions involving my lifestyle and my health and curing therapy. But some days to wait�lets hope I don’t go nuts waiting for it.
Oh, and the file is here, so enough writing. Ar labunakti.

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060226 – pain has come. but dont be afraid.

Finally, pain is coming into my house. Or lets say�its here. And a very surprising one. I mean the pain. It might be called bone braking or something similar. Suddenly at 6 in the morning after my 3rd visit to gents room, I realize that its extremely painful to move. And what more unpleasant – my legs�starting from knees and bellow ache like I have had them beaten for quite a while. Like some snowboarding accidents and rude soccer games.
Yesterday was the chemo day�.did some work for real-estate, and some other minor things, then after chemo as also one new sensation�sudden sleepiness attack�.eyelids just close down and all body becomes so tired and relaxed. The sad part was that I could not fall a asleep�.just lie down and observe how helpless I am�
Then some restoration works started and noise and all the stuff and then mom came, with wonderful photos with even me on them, and great home made meet with potatoes and left me sleeping�no..trying to fall as sleep, that I did not succeed and this after all the work stuff I did afterwards I went to bet at 1.15. again too late. And as you, my dear reader, I have slept maximum 5 hours and 25 minutes. And what’s surprising , I kind of don’t want more.
The nice interlude in yesterdays business stuff and paperwork and pricelist creation, was a visit by ginta�we chatted a bit. She will now look at me differently and maybe will start a new campaign about my personality, we played chess and somehow too little for me. I want more. This time she concentrated a bit more and she won most games. And thanks to her, I finally have got my hands on the 100% pure apple juice�it comes only in one size and that’s 3 l glass jars, thus its quite an adventure for a lady to bring such small present to a gent:
Also yesterday I did a small deed – I entered the sacred personal room of the medical staff, to microwave my dinner�the nice stuff mom brought, and I was so brave that I did it without anybody’s permission, because all the nurses were gone somewhere, but I was so hungry everything turned out great, I got my food warm, left a box of nice chocolates on the table and after 30 min, ladies were having chocolates and I was engorging the lovely edibles.

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060224 – out again. snooker with friends and beautiful items

Today i had great breakfast, lots of work, great lunch, a bit stressful ride to town due to not a very timely fashion of my behaviour – several times i made the lady to wait. It makes her feel uncomfortable, and makes me feel like an idiot, and the saddest is that i cant help being late sometimes, and now even more. So stupidus. But then had a nice ice-cream, looked at some ugly bags, then at some more beautiful, but more expensive, spent some time in bank cues, transferred some money, looked at some shoes and clothing, then had some more revelations that i do things that are not of great value – like eating loud, making noises, talking too loud in public, and basically i agree that i would want to change these things, but somehow i cant. Oh yes, i talked to psychotherapist, who said that im calmer today, than i was 2 weeks ago, some medication will be changed o i don’t become addicted. Then the culmination of the evening – a nice snooker game, where relaxed atmosphere, tea, nice pastries from gertrudes baznīcas neighbourhood, charming ladies and handsome young men spent time hitting and looking at balls being hit. The day. Tomorrow chemotherapy begins. Day 34. According to protocol.

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060224 – fun. thus no text. http://hardijs.wordpress.com/

labr�t.

istori�eskaja dahodnos�, �e�evo �egaran�irujet v budu�em. t� saka rekl�mas.

bet tiem kam nepat�k draugiem, ir alternat�va uz kuru iesp�jams es migr��u http://hardijs.wordpress.com/.
labpr�t uzkalus�tu atsauces…vai lab�k palikt draugos ar to dienasgr�matu, vai tom�r doties uz politneatkar�gu un vizu�li uzlabojamu un vis�di cit�di tehniski un prakstiski, lab�ku vietu.
protams, ja draugi teiks, tad saglab��u spogu�att�lu ab�s viet�s, vien�gais…ka koment�ri..katr� viet� savi….

nu ko sakat?

un kur� man grib�tu un var�tu atvest m�j�s v�r�tu ave�u vai melle�u zapti?
un k� ar m�j�s spiestu �bolu sulu. stulbi ka rim�ik� t�das manti�as nopirkt nevar.

paldies, un sveiciens latvie�u valodas faniem. �odien laikam �pa�� diena:]

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060223 – telephone backup for everyone. please apply.

Bon jorno.
Today�s topic � back up your phone.
After talking to my friends turns out that almost no one has backed up their phonebook and today i got a message from my ex-workmate, whose phone has crashed and he even hasn�t got my phone nr. If you need advice and technical gadgets to do that, please don�t hesitate to contact me. Its fairly simple and might save you lots of hassle in the future and i will be happy to make your life a bit better and prevent troubles in the future.

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060221 – flood, good health, banking, work

So, so
yesterday due to strange attitude towards practical things, or lets say – just not thinking, 2 lower apartments under my new apartment (where i haven’t started living yet) were flooded, because of not closed tap. Tap was not closed properly, because water pipes were frozen in the whole house. Luckily the guilty person is the master that was doing the repairs, thus he will have to deal with redecorating the apartments of the lower two floors.
Was fun and action during yesterday.
Now im preparing papers for my insurance company, and luckily turns out that the apartment right below me has some kind of insurance. The other does not, so floors will have to be changed and ceiling and some walls repaired. Luckily i owe lots of money to the repairman, so i don’t care how he will manage to fix it all.
And hopefully in the closest two weeks i will buy finally an owen and a new bath -i want an old fashioned, free standing, so called ulmanlaika type. Have to go through private adds, and that somehow annoy me a bit.
As i wrote – health situation is looking good, no blasts in the spine, almost none in the blood, all levels fine maybe Friday again i could go out and party.
Today i was working like hell – wrote two contracts for renting 2 offices, was at 3 banks, and now will try finally to do the webpage i’ve been postponing due to my greediness to ear some money.
And kind of small bad news is that they say that transplantation of the bone marrow is kind of important and that means that if i want to do that stuff somewhere in western countries with decent service and from people with decent experience i need some 200 000 eur. Kind of sucks, but i guess money people get somehow. Will have to figure something out.

K.
Enough for today.
And im still so happy that i can eat good food.
One of my greatest joys. I bought ice-cream today, so maybe round 23.00 I will have small ice-cream party with karlsons.
Also music, and the series L-word;)

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060220 – lieliski

anal�zes ir lieliskas
atvese�o�an�s notiek
man ir zv�ra apet�te
�du 2 zupas ���vi
skatos seri�la L-word, kuru iesaku visiem tre��s sezonas 2 s�riju, pateicoties gata atbalstam un ka���anai
http://www.thelwordonline.com/main.html

s�k�k rakst��u, kad b�s mazliet vair�k laika.

paldies visiem par interesi.
s�k�k kas ir labi anal�z�s pat nezinu…mugurkaul� neesot slikto ��nu un asin�s ar� gandr�z nemaz.
leikoc�du l�menis ir mazliet krities uz k�diem 2000 no 4000 vajadz�gajiem. mazliet j�uzman�s. neitrof�lie r�d�t�ji, kas �auj �st visu ar� ir labi. tromboc�di un eritroc�di ari.

zupa dziest, t�d�� pagaid�m.

cheers.

h

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060218 – labr�t

miegs ir nolaup�ts
tagad brokast�s ola v�rt�ta un gardas maiz�tes.
tad m��in��au atg�t zaud�to migu un dod organismam laiku vese�oties.
un gintai gar�tai – rakst�t latviski ir pat�kami, varb�t var sarun�t, ka tu p�rtulko p�ctam visu angliski? vai varb�t zini, k�du, kas to baigi grib dar�t? :]

ceru, ka visiem las�t�jiem, brokastis b�s pat�kams p�rdz�vojums – vienatn� ar r�tu, vai m��ot� cilv�ka kl�tb�tn�.

uz redz��anos,

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060218 – punkcija

�odien tais�js punkciju mugurkaul�
��maparaugus no mugurkaula vai tur ir sliktie blasti, ti. blastu ��nas
rezult�ti, laikam diezgan saist�ti ar dz�v�bu un n�vi
un tad v�l ie�pric�ja z�les
mazlieti� s�p�ja, bet tikai mazliet
stress liel�ks k� diskomforts un dakteris v�rietis teica ka under preasure nav �st� m�zika. uzliku klasiku un bija lab�k, vi�am. man ar� patika.

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060217 – OUT AND ABOUT

Today i left hospital round 12.30 and returned 23:00.
I think it says a lot about this day – was fun, had lots of good food, met lots of friends and i feel happy.
At first i went to gatis, and had a nice dinner making and then eating – hot shrimp salad, ribs and potatoes with friend onions (mmm – i did not know i love friend onions so much). And then the famous cake cielavina with black tea. Lovely. and that was just a perfect background for communicating with people that are close to me.
Then a trip to shopping mall for acquisition of food for the dinner with friends at M69 (that how i call my apartment). Unfortunately bought too little pesto sauce as well as too little cheese – a lesson for future, though maybe i was the only one that did not consider food being good enough. I know sometimes im a bit too much perfectionist, but the salad with tomato, mozzarella and basil was great and again the good food was only backgrounder for being together with people i love to share my path with. And we tried to watch a movie – kiss, kiss, bang bang, but i somehow understood, that communication is much more important and due to the fact that i was not allowed to stay at home overnight i did not want to spend looking at strange faces instead of looking at friends, and seeing them in action.
The movie will have its time and place for sure.
And now time i guess to have some drawing and then sleep sleep, and get well soon.
Thanks to everyone, especially ineta, for tremendous help and support today again, and standing some of my features of character that i haven’t managed to change though i want to. It will come, hopefully. At least im trying.
Sweet dreams, and a lovely Saturday morning to everyone.

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060216 – nobody comments, i write little, because of that

yeah

no feedback

if you don’t feed me back, i don’t have motivation to write
thus sucks
i would love to write something

ok
my self-esteem is great
again too much with computers’ setup
but I have to give back the borrowed pc so I have to install all tha vital software and migrate data. Takes time, and takes time away from drawing and breathing exercises.
And tomorrow if everything goes fine with my blood I will be able to spend night at home.
Exciting.
Want to listen to music. Loud.
And have good food and watch a good movie.
And and and.

Enough writing. I have to wash dishes, try to migrate data, and maybe even manage to finish my drawing, find software that randomizes fonts in a given paragraph to create a stylish invitation for my sister’s wedding.

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060214 – about important stuff – Only Trust Your Heart

“Only Trust Your Heart”

Never trust the stars
When you’re about to fall in love
Look for hidden signs before you start to sigh

Never trust the moon
When you’re about to taste his kiss
He knows all the lines and he knows how to lie

Just wait for a night
When the skies are all bare and then
If you still care

Never trust your dreams
When you’re about to fall in love
For you’re dreams may quickly fall apart

So if you’re smart
Really smart
Only trust your heart

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060213

Monday evening
Long time since the last entry in my diary and luckily, because it had been so much fun that I did not have time to write anything.
Accordingly to Dr. my analyzes are good and I received chemotherapy again today. But light one, and don’t feel any bad side effects. yet;)
Have been working much lately, too much for my primary job – have to relax a bit, cause im on a sick leave and i should concentrate on ,y personal benefits, imho.
today i finally had time to start working on a small website that ive been hustling for some time. Curios ones can peek at it: http://www.velvemst.lv/tests/
Hopefully this week i also will have time to compile my portfolio and then i will need to find a place where to host my website.
recently ive seen 3 movies – i recommend one – angels of the universe (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0233651/), then – dreamland by pakalnina. was ok, but too little action for me.

my top top top music experience lately is available for online listening @ http://www.myspace.com/therealmogwai. click on the song Friend of the night.

and tomorrow i will hopefully receive the new laptop that was kindly sponsored by my workplace and was bought by one of my great work colleagues in Germany. 17” monitor – im really enjoying much space on a screen, especially after being spoiled while working for the embassy on a 23’’ LCD monitor.

And its such a shame, that I still am not allowed to receive massage.
And turns out that so far its impossible to buy simple wireless speakers, there are products but for a price above eur 300. Will have to figure out, what to do with the sound in my hospital room;)| I guess nothing – earphones or speakers for Eur 10.

And im surprised how much do I eat…but I love good food and im happy that I can afford that. Only I should get a fridge in my room. And I miss physical activities.

And if anybody has ideas where to get a nice bag, can be used (for a reasonable price) as in the link bellow, please let me know.
http://www.customhide.com/leather_briefcases.html

And my contact with doctor has been positive lately and that also makes my days better.

There, unfortunately, are things that I have forgotten and might never remember, but I guess that’s the way it should be.

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Today is 1 month aniversary in my room (this hospital).

so…

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060211 – 01 – out out out

2006.02.12. 0:10:07

Today was so cool, so cool that no time to write about it.
At first i had chemotherapy – light one. No unpleasant side effects.
But then I was out of the hospital to a pizza party. Pizzas were great and i could see friendly faces and meet some friends. Only time was much too short, cause i had to back at 22.00 to get my 3 bottles of transparent liquid injected into me.
And im still a bit hungry, but luckily i have 2 small pizza pieces with me?
And the only disaster is that i don’t have almost any more jams. And tomorrow breakfast i will get some porridge. Brrrrrr….
But i think i will survive.

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060209 – 01 – 1 month

2006.02.10. 0:34:46
So.
Yesterday I didn’t have time to describe my adventures and it seems I won’t say much about the is well those days were so full and intense and now I am very tired.
Seems the day that might diary at the is almost over and hopefully tomorrow I’ll be able to have some decent food because I really enjoy having a decent meal.
This new dictate the software is working not very precise with my pronunciation that should be improved and then I really will not have to look at the screen what it is writing this right, because now some 50% have to be deleted and repeated.
Today we played cards with Kristaps and Edgars and I really enjoyed the game.
And I still feel very hungry because of this limiting diet.

The next sentences are for readers fun the first one was their computer recognized as the first attempt to dictate, the second is what I meant.

For the Dolphins and the doctor and she said that if everything else find even the law for some two hours on Saturday to bit safari was my friends.

Today I talked with my doctor and she said that if my health continues to improve I could even go to the pizza party on Saturday night. Of course it sounds like a dream come true but I believe in miracles.

And for the comely week and have enough blood donors and for the next I will need six.

Sweet dreams.

PS. By the way today’s exactly 1 month time since I am in the hospital. Surprisingly enough I did not notice any surprise party:P

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060208 – 01 – good day

22:58
Unfortunately have had too much fun during day thus falling asleep almost sitting, thus will have to skip details. Looks like diarrhoea is over and fun life continues. Listening to Brian Ferry i.e. Roxy Music. Like it.
Too many things I want to do, do not know from which to start.
And I’m so grateful to all my friends and supporters, and i guess that will be never too much to remind.
And today’s nurse was so great.
And hopefully i will dictate all the stuff that happened today in the speech recognition software that was kindly provided by a help of a very special friend.
Feels so good.
Sweet dreams to everyone. And LP&H.

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060207 – 01 – new day

2006.02.07. 9:59

If i thought that yesterday was tough…then tonight – could call it exciting. Description of physiological nuances will follow, so those who are sensitive, please don’t read.
A diarrhoea like this hopefully will remind me whole my life how happy I am not to have “a milk shake with acid” produced inside me and then to be released through one of my most sensitive body parts every hour. That’s how I did spend my night. And for the sake of security, I am wearing pampers for adults, cause the body is pretty self driven. Luckily did not have application for them.
Luckily right now mood is ok. I’m by the pc and even starting to get hungry, in comparison with last night, when I could not think of eating. Though my diet will change for some time, cause my mouth also is getting too sensitive and my leucocytes are down to 0…to be precise 0.8.

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060205 – 02 – tough

21:52

Today was the hardest day in my hospital life. Almost no energy and realization, that i can do 5 times less than i though i could.
That if i decide to make a sandwich, i instantly give up something else i could do more exciting. Feels like i will need a care taker that will feed me and i will not continue my great adventures on improving hospital food. Cause then i even don’t have energy and time to write my diary or draw or read a book.

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